ASSALAMMUALAIKUM W.B.T. peeps !
being afraid of what others might think about you is just a unworthy, useless feelings for losers. I'm always telling myself that, but some of the time I'm just...a LOSER. I'm afraid of what people may talk about me, as I'm "not living up my potential," I'm "wasting my intelligence," I'm "taking useless course," & so on. Frankly, someone used to talk to me like that. THESE kind of thoughts are sometimes, also what I'm thinking about myself. In other hand, on the other time. I know is it not real, (is it?)
I'm just doing what I love, what I will enjoy when I'm working later in future insyaAllah. It is just cliché for someone who got straight A's in SPM....4.00 in foundation in engineering NEED to futher on ENGINEERING OR MEDIC ONLY.
SOMEHOW, sometimes, I'm just a SORE LOSER, feeling ashamed to tell others what am I studying for degree, if being asked. BUT some other time, I can tell 'em loud & proudly. Bcoz I'm living up my own live, no pressure.
"YOU'RE WASTING YOUR TIME LEARNING CHEMISTRY, PHYSICS, ADD MATH..."
NO I DON'T! I LEARNT 'EM FOR THE SAKE OF THE KNOWLEDGE, LILLAHI TAALA. TO GAIN KNOWLEDGE, TO KNOW ALLAH BETTER. WHAT'S WRONG WITH IT?!
Please, I need prayers from whoever reading this..to pray for me. May I stay strong with the path I've chose, no matter what other negative people talks. Thank you in advanced. May Allah bless your life.
No, i'm not being 'riak' or proud by telling you I got excellent past academics records, I just need....to confess this to someone. to write 'em all out. To clear my head 'bout this thing, hopefully.
regards,
Kalau mahathir dgaq apa org kata, sampai la msia x dak airport sndiri, x dak klcc, x dak litar sepang. So mon, dari semak pikiaq apa org kata, baik semakkan diri jadi muslimah berjaya. My pray always be with you. Muah ciked.
ReplyDeletehaha imangg, analogi hg power weh, samakan dgn tun m. huhu. insyaAllah, arigatou-ne for those kind words....tapi........muah sikit je? huhuhuhuhu
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